Monday, December 12, 2011
What Is My Purpose?
This is quite possibly the nagging question in my mind. What is my purpose? Why did God create me? i think there really is not just a God shaped hole in our lives in ourselves that needs to be filled by a relationship with him with Jesus Christ, but I also feel that, at least for myself, there is a purpose hole. I feel that there is something missing in my life that I need to be who God made me to be, and that until I am, I will not feel complete.
I am blessed. Of that I am certain. I have a wonderful child and a fabulous husband. If I die tomorrow, I will be forever grateful for what God has given me. But what have I given God? What is my act of worship? What has He created me for? What are my talents? Seriously, all of this hits me all the time. Today especially.
I feel like there is something more and I am not there yet. It is almost maddening at times. In fact, at times I am blue, because I there is a part of me that is lacking. I can't quite pinpoint what it is, and I most likely am rambling right now, but truly I just need to suss out my thoughts. One of my goals for this year is definitely going to be to nail down who I am in Christ and who God made me to be. I think that for so long everyone else told me what I should do and should be that who I am got lost in the shuffle.
I'll have to think on this.